Welcome Jaxson Matthew Wentworth

Jaxson Matthew Wentworth 

born: February 21, 2012. 

time: 3:40pm

weight: 7lbs 3oz

height: 19in

His birth was a complete miracle! After marrying my husband in 2004 and struggling nearly 7 years to become pregnant, always thinking it was impossible he was laying there. He was feet from where I laid (getting cleaned up after birth) he was and always will be a gift from god.

Matthew is such a proud dad! His dreams were answered as much as mine that day. He couldn't wipe that smile off his face for the first three days. :)

This isn't the best picture of myself but it is our first skin to skin moment and he was completely content, he fell fast asleep. 

He had become a professional breast feeding baby by day three but when we were sent home one of the nurses guilt me into feeding him a formula bottle for the ride home. Since then the breast feeding process has been a difficult one. I'm struggling with how I feel about this.

Love,

Me and Sweet Pea

Gender Ultrasound

So my gender ultrasound was on Monday. We got there right on time and we could hardly wait to find out the sex of our baby. They took us back and started the ultrasound.. as she started the baby got very annoyed and moved around a lot. She quickly found the sex of our baby and let us know that we are having a BOY! Matthew of course was very excited but I was pretty happy with the news as well. The ultrasound tech looked over the res to of our baby boy's body and found something that wasn't right. She didn't let on to her discovery at all but said she needed to see if the doctor had anything to add. The doctor (whom I never met a day in my life) came in and told us that our baby has Club Foot and that this could indicate some Gene issues. I was instantly scared of course and after we were out of the appointment and waiting for a consult with that doctor for later that day I began to cry and worry even more.

The consult lasted roughly 30 minutes and consisted of the doctor telling us that our baby may be born with Down Syndrome, 13 extra chromosomes, or 18 extra chromosomes. As many of you know I work in Adult Foster Care and we have three women with Down Syndrome that live with us, so I know some about this genetic issue and have prepared myself, since the appointment to bring a Down Syndrome baby into this world if that is what God chooses. If you know anything about extra chromosomes it's that you shouldn't have too many. If our baby is born with 13 or 18 extra chromosomes he will not make it to his first birthday. We are praying that this is not the genetic issue we have to deal with but are determined to give him the best life regardless of the outcome. This has been a very hard week and we have decided to have this baby regardless of the number of chromosomes it has. 

On a lighter note, here are some ultrasound pics to enjoy... 

21 weeks and 6 days

it's hard to tell but that is a pic of his penis

He truly is a gift from god and I'm looking forward to greeting him. 


Love,
Me and Lil Man (sweetpea)

OB Appt.

Today was my third OB appointment and I'm happy to report everything looks fantastic! :)

- The doc says today I'm 21weeks and 1day.
- I'm weighing 242lbs which is the same as my last appointment but she says that's good! :)
- Baby's heart-rate is in the 150's which is also good! 
- My belly measured in today at 23cm which she said was right on target!

I'm feeling rather good these days.. headaches here and there but Doc says it might be caffeine with drawls and to try to take my Tylenol with a glass of pop next time. I've been really tired lately too, but I guess every pregnancy is different and so that's normal for my body too... doc says "listen to your body, it knows what you need!"


Really getting excited that the semester is getting close to completion also. I'm finding it very hard to focus in class and even harder to remember things on the tests. Can't wait until I can just focus on my little sweetpea! 


Love,
Me & Sweetpea!

Sleepless Nights...

I'm not that big yet.. I swear! But for some reason I can NOT get comfortable while in bed... put me on the couch at 1 o'clock in the afternoon and I am snoring away, but when bed time approaches I just get so annoyed. The more I try to get comfortable the less it seems to help.  Matthew bought me a pregnancy pillow and acts like he can't understand WHY I'm whining about not being comfortable. I told him last night, "I wish you could be pregnant and carry this child for a week... with a yeast infection and the baby flipping around making you think you're going to throw up." 

Last night the baby kept moving around so fast.. it felt like I was on a rollercoaster and going down the biggest drop. I kept getting sick to my stomach and feeling like at any second I might hurl. Matt just turned away from me and quickly fell asleep.  Why can't guys understand?? Of all the men in my life I would have thought he'd be the one to at least want to make me comfortable. Like the other day I asked if he'd rub my feet and he said, "I'll do yours while you do mine"... and then said, "you're mean" when I glared at him and punched his foot he was wagging in my face. 

Dear unborn child,

I love your father with all my heart but there are times when I want to stab him with something sharp... please forgive your mommy, for entertaining these ideas. 

Love Mommy

PS. Don't tell Daddy! 

Me and SweetPea

Moody days!!

So I have been sick for the past few weeks now and I am finally, completely, and entirely over it! 

My nose is raw and red. It's been running on and off again for these past weeks, and I finally went and bought some good tissue.  I got this new kind called Kleenex Cool Touch... they are really nice but still hurting my nose! :(

I am positive my baby is tired of me sneezing.. I can't just sneeze once ya know, it has to be at least three times and up to ten times, every... SINGLE... TIME!

I am moody with pretty much everyone around me.  I try to apologize but I don't think they accept my apology since I turn around and snap at them again right afterwards.  I'm so upset with being sick that I can barely focus on much else.  All this pregnancy anger has been building up in me and today is the day I let some of it out... 

I pray I can sleep tonight, however much I doubt it.  I've been unable to get comfy for awhile and now add my stuffed up head and the inability to breath to that... doubt I'll see much sleep time tonight! :(

So yeah this is just a complete rant and yes I do feel better... thanks! :)

Love you all and goodnight!

Love Me and Sweetpea

Baby movements!

Today is a special day for me.

I took the girls (adult foster care ladies) to Walk Club, and while I was there I started complaining about how I haven't felt the baby move yet and how I wanted to SO bad. The girls said it will happen in time and then they talked about how great it was only to make me envious! :)

So when we got home tonight I had to do some homework and paperwork.  So as I was sitting there doing paperwork I felt this small little tickle in my stomach on the left side... I itch it and it stops... but only for about a minute and then starts tickling again.. I itch.. it stops... then less than a minute it starts.. and it dawns on me.. the baby is moving! YAY!! :D 

I am the happiest lady in the house tonight! I just thought I'd share my happiness with ya'll! :)

love Me and (moving like crazy) Sweet Pea

sick!

So I've been having sinus issues for the past two to three weeks but this morning it is the worst it's been! I've been taking Claritin but it's just not helping at all! Today I have a doctor's appointment with my OB (well an OB from the same office, because my OB is on call at the hospital and doing night rounds), so I will be bringing this up to him/her because I'm not sure how much of this I can stand! :( 


I hope to find out some details at this appointment.. like weight and size of my belly etc. 


*will update*

love Me and Sweet Pea

*update* 


Doc gave me some antibiotics (killer ones :)) and I'm feeling MUCH better today! :) 
Didn't find out much from the appt because I was SO SICK, I just wanted to lay down and fall asleep until the room stopped spinning!