I'm PREGNANT!!!

I got a positive pregnancy test on Sunday (Father's Day) but wasn't sure if I was seeing things right... three tests later and I called my Doc with the news. Doctor Will had me do two blood tests now and sure enough I am 4 weeks pregnant as of Wednesday (but I think it's actually supposed to be Tuesday but anyway). We are VERY excited that it only took the one IUI and now we are starting our little family! I have an ultrasound during week 7 and so I will have pics up as soon as I can! I'm asking that everyone please not share my news on FB or other social networks until I have announced it, we want to wait until after the first ultrasound, just to be careful! :) I'm sure you are all as excited as us! Thanks again for your support and don't stop coming here for updates... I will be blogging my whole pregnancy! Love you all!

Love, Me and Sweetpea

TwO WeEk WaIt!

♥ I got a positive ovulation result yesterday and today I went down to my doctors and had my IUI done.  We are now in the two week wait period of the cycle.... in two weeks, I either start my period or I'm pregnant. I'm sure you know which I'm pulling for, and I hope you join me! :) Thanks for all your support and love.. I feel it all around me. ♥

Round 2

I 

am 
starting 

my second attempt... 

I'm on cycle day 4 today and 

have been taking Femara since last night.  The Femara side effects aren't terrible

but they have

made me sick to 

my stomach and have 
given me a headache. I'm really 

excited to start testing for ovulation.. this

time we 

are going to 

spring for the expensive

tests, in hopes that we wont

miss ovulation again lol! That's really all

I have

to update

everyone on 

however.. :) Keep

us in your prayers please... 

love ya!

Small set back...

So I was doing my ovulation tests the way I should, but I was unclear if Sunday's test was a positive or a negative and turns out it may have been a positive.  Ughhh..

What does that mean?

Well, it simply means that we missed our window for this month and so we will have to wait until my next period and try again.  My doctor has suggested I come down on Cycle Day 14 for an ultrasound (sadly this will cost big bucks) to see if we can move forward at that time.

How am I taking it?

Well, I've been crying on and off for the past two days.  I just feel like it's never going to happen and this is one more thing keeping us from our goals.  I feel stupid for not realizing it was a positive and I feel very mad at myself. I feel like I've let Matthew down, and I really don't like this feeling.  With all that I feel very lucky to have such great friends and family supporting me (I can feel you all around me).  I am realizing that this is simply a small speed bump in our path.  I'm starting to feel less dumb about not realizing it was a positive, those tests are hard to read lol.  I'm starting to be happy with my body again because the positive means I OVULATED!! Which means my body isn't broken! :D

Thank you all for your love... 

I'm so lucky to have you ALL!

The Ball is rolling....

My 1st cycle has officially started.  

Taking my first femara pills tonight, since it's day 3 

of my cycle. Matthew and I have an attentive apt. to see Dr. Will on May 9th.  Then it will be a whole new kind of waiting game. Waiting to see if the 

test comes back positive! Wouldn't it be 

nice if the 1st cycle worked and

we didn't have to do another?

I think it would be, but 

trying not to 

worry!

:)

The Waiting Game...

When we started this journey Matthew and I, we knew there was going to be a lot of waiting involved.  We are at stage one of the waiting game.  I took the last (period starting) pill yesterday and should be starting my period any time now.  I have to wait for my period to start before I can start taking Femara.  I will take Femara days 3-7 of my cycle.  Around the 11th day I will start doing ovulation kits to find the day I ovulate.  The rest is pretty self explanatory of course hehe. 

I have PCOS, and therefore my body doesn't ovulate properly.  When looking back I figure I ovulated possibly once last year.  The fact that my body isn't ovulating like normal, has made it practically impossible for me to conceive. I've learned a lot about my body in the past year.  I never prepared myself for not being able to conceive.  I spent all my time worrying about getting ready for a baby and what a baby would need to worry about what my body needed.  I was getting my home ready for a baby and forgot to make sure their first home (my womb) was hospitable. 

I remember my mom telling me how she got pregnant for me, and how she was a fertile mertile and that I'd have no problems getting pregnant. There are many days that I wish she was right.  So many days that I get bitter towards those whom it comes so easy for.  I found myself the other day in tears and screaming at my computer screen because one of my FB friends is pregnant and keeps posting pictures of her baby bump.  I was screaming, "No one wants to see you FAT PREGNANT STOMACH!" Tears were streaming down my face, and I realized how bitter I was being and tried to quickly compose myself. Honestly she's a great girl and I'm very happy for her, but jealousy rears it's ugly head.

So here I sit on Saturday night... waiting... patiently for my period to start.  I never thought in a million years I'd ever be praying for my period to just hurry up and start.  No woman likes her period, but I find excitement growing deep inside me as I wait... wait... wait for mine! 

waiting.......

14 days

So! Doctor Matthew Will has me on a pill that will force me to have a period (and force me to ovulate).  The last time he had me take this pill for the SIS procedure, my body didn't respond that well to it and so he has me taking it for 14 days now instead of 10.  So I will have more updates soon... 

(: I hope! :)