So I was doing my ovulation tests the way I should, but I was unclear if Sunday's test was a positive or a negative and turns out it may have been a positive. Ughhh..
What does that mean?
Well, it simply means that we missed our window for this month and so we will have to wait until my next period and try again. My doctor has suggested I come down on Cycle Day 14 for an ultrasound (sadly this will cost big bucks) to see if we can move forward at that time.
How am I taking it?
Well, I've been crying on and off for the past two days. I just feel like it's never going to happen and this is one more thing keeping us from our goals. I feel stupid for not realizing it was a positive and I feel very mad at myself. I feel like I've let Matthew down, and I really don't like this feeling. With all that I feel very lucky to have such great friends and family supporting me (I can feel you all around me). I am realizing that this is simply a small speed bump in our path. I'm starting to feel less dumb about not realizing it was a positive, those tests are hard to read lol. I'm starting to be happy with my body again because the positive means I OVULATED!! Which means my body isn't broken! :D
Thank you all for your love...
I'm so lucky to have you ALL!
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